So, as I mentioned in my last post, I’m now on YouTube! My channel is here if anyone’s interested (and, if you are, then checking it out will really help me!) and I’m really excited to be back on the platform, so I thought I’d talk a little about it now. Currently, I am focusing on The Sims because that’s the easiest thing for me to cover right now (and because I love The Sims) but yeah, hope I get to branch out soon.
Years ago—2012, according to me here—I used to run a channel. A small one, maybe 250 subs, but I was able to post every day and my viewers were amazing. It was actually an awesome little community, and as I was having such a hard time in school, it was really nice to have this YouTube thing as a positive aspect in my life. I really enjoyed making the videos, too. Making content for YouTube can take a while, but it was a lot of fun and I loved it.
That channel—and the connected videos—is gone now. It was in 2012 that I got my epilepsy diagnosis, and from there things sort of … didn’t go as I’d planned.
Due to my epilepsy, my health seriously declined. And it was in the first couple of years that it was at it worst. I was spending so much time in bed, not doing anything, not feeling able to do anything. And, slowly, I just stopped uploading videos onto my channel. I missed making my gaming videos. I missed the little community that would post comments and be awesome, but I just wasn’t up to it. My health stayed kind of sucky as exams hit. So, the videos just stopped.
They stopped and they didn’t come back, really. I went on to sixth form college and I still felt terrible (don’t get me started ranting about when the depression hit, haha, I can do a whole ‘nother thing on that monster) and I did try, every now and again, to start up the channel again, but it just never happened. It never happened and I really missed it. And honestly, years later, not having that thing in my life that I used to really care about still sucked.
This year I’ve been trying a little more to get back to doing stuff that I love. It’s still hard because I still spend so much of my time struggling to get done even the most basic things, but I keep at it because I have to and I want to. For me. For example, last year I barely read a book. And I love reading. So this year, though I haven’t read nearly as much as I used to, I’ve been trying to slowly build up the amount that I read.
So, yeah! That’s my piece, I guess. I really miss making YouTube videos and having a YouTube channel really did make me happy, so this year I made a new channel and slowly (as I’m still sick, and still a little busy) I’m working on uploading more and more content there, because I enjoy it and I think it’ll be good for me. It’s a little disheartening to have to build a channel up from nothing again, but I enjoy it and I care about it so in the end I don’t mind.
Wow. Okay. That was a completely impromptu ramble about YouTube, but anyway, the channel is here and I’m working on a building challenge video that I was challenged to by Shannon if you’re interested. Really, it’s just something that I’m doing to try and lift my spirits a little bit. It’s nice to have this sort of thing to work on again.